What does God want for me?

I’ve been SO caught up lately with this question. What does God want for me? I hear so often that God has a plan for me… and I’m like, I NEED TO FIND IT! Where is it? Where’s the finish line? Which path do I take? Which one is RIGHT?

This sounds so silly but sometimes I feel like a dog that can SMELL that someone in the house just made food. So I run around, excited and hungry (though I am hungry for the Lord!!). And the kitchen door is locked!! So where’s the food? And I run around so frantically, knowing it will be GREAT once I get there but just not knowing HOW to find it!

I need peace.

I need rest.

I need contentment.

I need trust.

I need the Lord.

I have endless questions. What do you want me to do with my gifts? Should I use what I have learned in college to serve you? Would he rather have me in Chicago teaching in a high need school, or serving in a church in the suburbs, or on a college campus discipling others? Would I serve him better using my skills in teaching math… or spreading the gospel… or counseling… reaching the unloved or building up the church or leading the lost? Should I teach His word and show God’s love? Or should I teach math and show students love through that?

I don’t KNOW any answers.

I don’t NEED to know any answers.

I don’t even know if there ARE answers?

I KNOW that I need some truth poured into my life.

I’m so grateful for the people that God has put in my life to remind me that I can serve him wherever I am. He will use me. I will serve him. He doesn’t NEED me but he CHOSE me. I will be his hands and feet. That is comforting. And all I feel I can do right now is lay down these worries and questions at his feet and just TRUST GOD.